genuinely curious, a digital archive of self-healing

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meditative art as a healing practice

1- take a breath
2- click on an image
3- meditate on image
4- read prompt
5- write what you feel
6- refresh your browser
7- repeat as you need

what are self-healing decks?

  • a self-healing deck is a collection of prompts, paintings, and poems that support you in your healing journey. each deck has a specialized theme surrounding emotional alchemy. when you work with a deck you can begin to create your own healing archive of wisdom and realizations that you can revist to support your healing. you can also share these wisdoms with family, loved ones and community to support their healing as well. you can read more about the different themes associated with each deck if you scroll down to the emotional alchemy deck section below.

  • in families there are shared recipes, financial management tools, cleaning habits, and other unique traits that are shared. one important sharing of information that is not always so prioritized is emotional regulation and mental belief systems. due to the responsibility and pressures involved with of surviving and sustaining life - many families didn’t have time, ability or support to share their wisdom with their people. a healing archive is a collection of realizations, experiences, memories, and wisdoms that you create to support your own healing so that you can share it one day with people you love and want to support. self-healing decks exist to support you and your community in cultivating your own emotional alchemy tools.

  • emotional alchemy is the action of taking your inner-contents of beliefs, ideas, abilities, differences, traumas, visions, and dreams and working with them to change them into what you want them to truly be. many times feelings cloud our judgment and beliefs holding us back from taking opportunities. lack of self-reflection can hinder curiosity being cultivated. emotional alchemy is made up of practices of devotion that bring you into deeper intimacy with your inner-worlds (feelings, dreams, trauma, etc.) to change them into what can support your - life regardless of the contents. emotional alchemy work is about becoming intimate with what is through creating your life from a place of deep awareness and trust. instead of accepting a circumstance internally as unchangeable, working with these decks can support you in cultivating more agency and peace in your life.

  • working with the decks helps you to create a deeper intimacy with your inner-workings such as: beliefs, emotions, traumas, somatic self and co-regulation, and more. every person that has used the decks or had a 1:1 reading with tianna has reported more transparent and easeful relationships with themselves and others. these decks serve you to get curious about your own circumstances, contexts and contents of your inner-worlds.

  • pull a card when you wake up or go to bed… journal with these cards as a self-care practice… start a healing circle with loved ones… pull a card when you are stuck… pull cards with a loved one to learn more about each other and work through complex feelings or situations. these cards are self-care tools that help you cultivate more agency and ability to regulate your inner-worlds and be with what is for you regardless of the situation. these decks support you to design your behavior and life for you, by you.

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why and how i created the decks

attempting to integrate learnings into new behavioral patterns and beliefs can feel impossible under the weight of systemic power and oppression, ancestral trauma, and unequal access (income, toxic workplaces, overworking to survive, mental-health duress, physical needs, and more).

many days it felt impossible to imagine a more peaceful, abundant life with so much pain, poverty, and problem-solving beyond our control. i began creating decks for my own mental health while working nonstop on climate initiatives locally, nationally, and globally.

i kept studying the tensions between heart wisdom and somatic wisdom, truths and trauma stories, ritual and relationship, what can be offered and what can be received. i learned what it felt like to live in the space between where we are and where we want to be.

i used these decks as small steps to support a slow pace of healing through noticing. i examined my mind alongside my body’s wisdom. i committed to working with ego while embracing vulnerability.

deck work helped me accept where i am, accept what the teams i work with are capable of, and offer myself and others as much grace as possible.

my decks are here to remind you that you are not alone—you are deeply interconnected with the web of life through all that you offer. you are not too late. you are exactly where you are. learning what’s real matters; what’s real can be accepted and worked with. these decks invite you to get genuinely curious about what’s true for you, on your own terms, in your own way.

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what are the emotional alchemy deck themes?

  • in society, messages are constantly coming at you: on your phone, online, ads, microaggressions, people’s ideas of who you should be, and more. this deck guides you to name the untruths floating in your consciousness and work with them so you can live into your truths.

  • as you release projections and untruths, guilt and shame can arise. this deck’s poems and paintings support you in letting go of what you’re holding, stopping the need to prove yourself, and allowing yourself to simply live.

  • as you learn your motivations, it’s time to practice boundaries and self-affirmation. this deck offers questions and prompts that help you create the changes you want with curiosity and momentum.

  • integration after new experiences or realizations can be hard amid the busyness of life. this deck invites you to deepen into what it means to hold contradictions, avoid extremes, and keep going even when change feels unbearable.

  • when it’s time to change, parts of us often try to stop the shift. this deck offers reminders and practices to move through self-sabotage with care, even when it feels overwhelming.

  • as you grow into a fuller way of living, grief will ask for room—grief for what could have been, for contrasts with what is, and for the unknown. this deck supports you in creating grief rituals and regular practices to meet sadness and despair with tenderness.

  • as life changes again, insecurity and fear can surface. this deck offers expansive prompts to help you imagine possibilities beyond anxiety. it’s a gentle reminder to choose new paths instead of shrinking or clinging to what harms, so you can root into clarity and calm.

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this collection of self-healing decks offers seven unique decks that take you through the process of emotional alchemy. the process of alchemy is about transforming something from one state to another. lead to gold. pain to presence. chaos to clarity. these decks support you to change the reality you experience inside of yourself, so that you can live more of the reality you long for. read about each deck’s theme by exploring the drop down menu to the right.

  • a deck for creating grief rituals

  • a deck to support creating boundaries

  • a deck to support holding complexity

  • a deck to support exploring guilt and shame

  • a deck to support addressing self-sabotage

  • a deck for strengthening your belief systems

  • genuinely curious about safety

    a deck for creating intimacy with mystery